Thanks for being part of my life

06 September, 2012

It was only after my sister got married that I realised her importance in my life. Earlier I would wish that I had a brother instead of my sister, but after she left our home did I realise how much she loved me.

RECENTLY WHILE on an outing with cousins, we played a game in which we had to write down anything about a person on a piece of paper. And I confessed my hidden feelings which I had never shared with my sister by writing, “the worth of having a sister ee mane ena java pachi khabar paidi” (I understood the worth of having a sister after she left me) and the moment I expressed this, we both ran into tears.

It is really difficult for me to share feelings about people for whom I really care a lot. Writing it down has made things easier for me. All my childhood I always used to think that instead of the sister I had a brother. And even after what I used to hear from my girlfriends that they share everything with their sister and the bond that they have from their childhood I used to get jealous. But I was proved wrong during the time spent with my sister from her engagement time till her marriage. She was a completely different person. I could see her care for me and how she saved me from all my wrong doings, and kept all the secrets. She even did my part of house work. And then I realized she always loved me and does even now. Then I could see all the care, love which I didn’t notice before.

When I was in 1st and 2nd standard she used to do all my drawing work. Though she showed she didn't like to do that but she cared about my grades. I remember once it was her birthday and all of her friends were giving her gifts and I too wanted to give her one. She has always been fond of greeting cards. So I took one card and wrote “to” “from” and happy birthday and ran down to her and gave her card in front of all her friends so they can see that even I have gifted her one. And one of her friends told that it is the same card I gifted you last year. And all her friends started laughing and my sister smiled at me and said, “thank you”. But I never saw that before. I was hurt because all her friends laughed at me. That’s the only birthday gift I had ever gifted her. But she loved that even though it was her own stuff.

Whenever guests brought any chocolates, I was the one who received them and never shared it with her and ate all of it. But whenever she received it, she always divided it into two (I am still cunning sometimes… come on we are talking about chocolates!!). Once my cousin told me that my sister loved me a lot, as she always praised about me.

We used to fight like cats and dogs, throwing stuffs at each other and saying bad things. But next day it was all okay till next fight (now I even miss the fights). Instead of fighting at night we talked about different things and laughed out loud. There have been many instances which made me realize all that I missed to see when it was always in front of me. All this I realized when it was time for her to leave her home and settle at another place. And from then I never wished I had brother instead of her. I love you a lot bhakti. Thanks for being a part of my life.